the future that matters

hello people, well, we meet again.
so right now, i'm just gonna spilling out what's just flashed gone through my brain.

one day, my sister told me,
"if you wanna live with the right guy for the rest of your life, make sure that he is the super wise guy, or the super jerk guy."
"why is that? why should i pick this, super jerk guy?" i ask her.

i mean, let's see.
jerk; [jurk] Slang . a contemptibly naive, fatuous, foolish, or inconsequential person.
we all know, from the definition of jerk, we all have different kind of pictures in our brain for sure.
a person that make all of us pissed off.
a bad-tempered person
a flirting drunk person touching your body
a cocky person who showed everything he/she had in front of you
blablabla yadda yadda you name it.

and then, she began to tell me why.
"because, you'll never know when will the wise guy quit from his wise-ness. maybe someday, the wise guy will flirt with some girls, boozing on alcohol, smoking weed, partying all night, blablabla. because the way i see it, people that is really nice, can be really jerk at the same time. or.....vice versa! you'll never know that when will the super jerk guy will quit from his jerk-ness. somehow, maybe one day you're the one, who make him quit his from his jerk-ness."

since my sister told me about this, i begin to see that. and it's really, OBVIOUS AND CLEAR.
well i'm not kidding because, the one that i used to see as a, wise + nice guy, becomes a cocky and the one who likes to party all night! geez, i like the old you, man! too bad you're changing. what a pity.

and she added
"but then, lucky you if you found the suuuuuper wise guy. you might be the luckiest girl on earth. well good luck. guys like that are soooo rare."
yes it is. i can see that.

and then one day, i found this picture

do you know who he is? he is ricky gervais.
one of the funniest (plus,) the most jerk guy i've ever seen in the television. and to me, those sentences was true. it is important to be kind rather than clever + good looking. kindness does matters.

well that's it for now. i hope you guys keeping your kindness deep down in you
i love you all
with all my heart,
the one who keeping her kindness.

2012 WISHES

A portable vinyl player so I can carry this shit everywhere I go

Idk, I just really want to play a keytar.

Ummm just wanting this book so badly. To fill my boring day(s)

ALL OF DONNA HAYWARD'S CLOTHES. She's my favorite character from a 90s series called "Twin Peaks" in case you didn't know her.

Aaaaand I've been wanting this shit since 2008. Dude why not?

guys that i wish was exist in real life

1. Garrett Breedlove from The Terms Of Endearment
I fell in love with this character so bad. A bizarre old man that have a wild side. I would love to spend my life with a bizarre guy and he'll keep his wild side until he's old.
2. Jesse from Before Sunrise/Before Sunset
The way he tells stories from his life, and those smart conversations. I just......love it. It's like a lullaby for your long sleep.
3. Andy Dufresne from The Shawshank Redemption
I NEED A SUPER-DUPER WISE GUY JUST LIKE HIM, PLEASE.
4. Roy Walker/Red Bandit from The Fall
I just want to have a big brother just like him. He'll be a great brother
5. Bob Harris from Lost In Translation
He's qualified as my lifetime friend. He's still hiding his sadness from his "outcast-ed" life, just like me, being in the middle of the unknown crowd. He's just.........idk, undescribable.
6. Harry Lockhart from Kiss Kiss Bang Bang
A badass guy from New York, he has to be by my side to be my personal comedian + cop. (And yeah, magician, for sure ;D)
7. Joel Barish from Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
He'll show me that memories are too important :'''''''''''')

ps; those images are from google + imdb + tumblr

SUMMER - ESTATE - ÉTÉ - SOMMER

it's just too much to tell.

a great summer it is.

plans

what did you do when your life's boring?

i just sit. or maybe lay in bed. and do nothing.

maybe everybody did the same thing just like i did.

but now, instead of do nothing, i'll make plans for my future.

it might be kinda funny but, well, this is my plan, um maybe for now

• make redscale film
• make recycled notebook
• watch stanley kubrick movies (a clockwork orange, lolita, dr. strangelove, 2001: a space oddyssey, and last but not least THE SHINING)
• save lots and lots of $$$$$$$$$$$$$$
• take a movie course. i really, desperately, NEED ONE.
• make lots of collage and,
• make a portfolio
• berdoa supaya film joycam nggak jelek dan cacat pas keluar (YES I BUY ONE! FINALLY!!!! u can see it right here, 2 years ago i wrote joycam as my wishlist: http://bit.ly/kLkYgb)
• belajar tekun supaya masuk jurusan ___ (saya rela masuk jurusan IPA/IPS. dua duanya biasa aja toh. sama susahnya)
• puasa senin kamis (0h God yes i know ok ok, i hope i can make it)
• finish my story

oh about the last one? yes i'm currently writing a story since the beginning of 2011. it's about the ups and downs for having an unknown & an unusual relationship. it's not a thing that called "oh this is my date!" nah, no no. but it's just more than bestfriend. i have this idea, or maybe to be exact, it's a wake up call to me because i am the one who wanted such a thing like that, happened to me. yep u got it right, i'm not looking for a committed (but it ends temporary) relationship. useless anyway isn't it? i'm just looking for a guy who wants to be my beeeeeeeeeeeeest friend. yep u got it right again, a guy best friend. the reason why i'm looking for a guy best friend because, yeah, i want to prevent the love disease in this sick sad world because of "the word" (i mean, brokenhearted). but don't get me wrong. i'm not looking for GAY best friend ok? ha.

actually, i have more plans. but for this year? uh maybe that's enough.

what's the best word to close a post for a blog? i don't know.

is goodbye enough for you guys? or is it too common? whatever, still gonna use it.
k then, bye! c ya, someday~